There are times where reality gets distorted. What surrounds me does not make any sense. It seems fictitious. An altered state of mind where my perceptions are deviating and ever-changing.
I stop living the present.
By the time I realize that my thought process is one second faster than the rest of the world, I get lost and overwhelmed trying to slowdown. I detach from my natural rhythm.
Music helps me get back on tempo: it centers me. Also, it helps me fine-tune with the world that appears to be in much dissonance.
An urgent necessity to return back to my homeostatic state, my equilibrium.
Silence can be the perfect soundtrack during those moments, too. When I feel anxious, there is an unusual fear to say anything. However, my thoughts are loud and clear.
Has music helped you with anxiety or uncomfortable feelings? If so, what seems to be the good approaches that you have tried? I am curious to know how many others rely on sound to find calmness.
There are times, however, where music is not available. Therefore, I tend to make my own by humming, whistling, or finger tapping some type of rhythm. Sometimes, I just start signing quietly at work. The point of this, I believe, is to focus on something other than the self. It is a distraction that has worked most of the time.
The adrenaline kicking in. A hyper-awareness and becoming self-conscious about it starts in the back burner of my mind. The air seems heavier, and difficult to breathe. Shallow breathing becomes my pattern.
Until I break this distorted state with sound, rhythm, and melody.
Or I just drown myself in silence because it can also be harmonious.
Sound and silences are the keys that open the room where seems that there is no exit.
I realized that I opened the door, and let myself in. Now is time to go out.